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after a hard days work, nothing beats a long cold thirst than….

Well, project no 2 is all finished, and printed, waiting binding.  Presentation is written, powerpoint is created and I’m all ready for tomorrow.  Im handing in 25% and presenting for 25%.  Strangely Im not stressed.

Got three days off work now, yoshi!

Mel come back from being in NZ for the year on tuesday, very excited.

very tired right now.

Australian idol is almost finished, but I’ve already seen what I wanted to see – the beatbox alliance.  That’s what I want to be when I grow up!

It’s now offically schoolies week…  And as my mother pointed out to me, it’s been 5 years since I graduated high school.  Then she turned around and asked me “And what have you accomplished with your life Michele?”

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Brisbane Libraries are great!  You can actually borrow out DVDs!  Which means I can borrow them, and then copy them…..  So i borrowed out the anime for ruroken, and I was pleasantly surprised.  I like the portrayals of the characters.  Sure they changed a few things around, but some things make a bit more sense.  And the animation wasnt as bad as I thought it would be….. although its not up to the standards of the ovas.

kaoru does think highly of her looks though…..

Started work today at 6, so I had to wake at 415.  I dont know what it is about 415, but my body doesnt like it, and doesnt want to get up.  I have no problems after 5….. 

Well, it’s offically over.  That’s right, today is the last day of my 40 days of purpose. 

Actually I finished the book yesterday, somehow I got a day ahead in the readings.  And I was being so paranoid about getting behind

I’m very pleased to have finished it.  But as in all things of this nature, it doesnt really stop here.  There are changes to be made in my life, and some very serious thinking to do.  I dont want to go back to the way I was, but already I am saying to myself – I can do that next week when I have time.   sigh.

Two changes that I will make – I am giving up reading fanfiction.  period.  It really detracts from my life.  I spend far too much time on my computer.  Primarily becuase I am reading.  Much badness.  And, I will start going to church again.  Mind you, in this area, I am being very disobedient…  I am planning to start going to church again in Jan…  not now.  Excuses aren’t good enough.  I know I am sinning.  God have mercy on me.

But anyway.  Something other than the deep and spiritual.  Last week I brought 3 manga, so very exciting!  Esp the new ruroken – finally got to meet Misao  very very happy.

Um, Sex and the City finally finished.  Now just one more ep of Friends and I have no more ‘must see tv’  which will be nice.  I’d love to try and have a week with no tv, internet or playstation.  But because of assignments, that isnt going to happen for at least a month.

Started reading a new book yesterday – Japan It’s history and culture.  So far its facinating.  Unfortunately I cant find it in the search feature, so you’ll just have to live without the cover.

Oh, mail, brb….  All right, the ruroken dvd just arrived at the library, yoshi!

NEway, back on to topic….  Japanese history.  I’ve only read the first two chapters, but the thing that strikes me is that recorded Japanese history begins around 500AD.  That’s not a daunting as I used to think.  Sure Japan has a much longer history than australia, but I thought it would be more that that.  Yes, there were ppl before that, the ppl of Yamato (hehe matt) and even earlier the Wa, but civilization in Japan only started to develop around then.  And then Buddism was introduced.  So I think chrisitanity in Japan has a chance (more of a chance than I used to think anyway).  It’s not a losing battle to a religion that has been in place far longer that chistianity exsisted. 

I dont know if that make much sense.  All I’ll say is that God has really put Japan on my heart receintly.

Well, my washing is almost done, and then I have to go to uni and create chaos, hehe.

I only have to get 30% of 50%.  I can do that right?

I dont know why I’ve lost all motivation for uni.  it just doesnt make sense to me.  and I’m killing myself with stress over my procrastination….  (sp?)

well, I really should be studying now…….

My second last day at Garden Gourmet today.  Last day is next thursday.

Happy Halloween

I shouldnt watch reflections  with other people around.  It reduces me to a blubbering pile of goop.  poor kaoru.

Had my first offical shift today at the airport, it was okay.  Had to talk in japanese, it made the folk giggle….

Now I’m going to figure out if I should drop out of a subject or not.  I dont think there is anyway I can pass physics 3, so should I bother doing the exam?  lets count percentages…..

Day 17 – still reading, just got a few days behind.

Sometime I worry about my sense of humor – http://cloud.datashed.net/gems/secrets/exuberance.swf  

I’ve got a praise report – I managed to get a new job at the Brisbane Int’l airport (in a counter service coffee shop)  Its good money, and plenty of hours, so It should be good for me to save up for japan in january.

totally addicted to final fantasy x.  been playing it for over 34 hours, but Im getting near the end.  Its really great, I have no skill in video games, and battles are really easy in this game, I suppose you would call it strategy…  I finally got to the point when Tidus kisses Yuna… sigh, too much of a romantic….

Day 3 – What drives your life?

Good question.  And to be honest at the moment – nothing of great importance

From what I can gather from reading to book – resentment, fear, need for approval and stress.  Damn stress…..

Resentment isnt that big of an issue, except when it comes to my relationship with males of the species, and then that leads to fear….  But I dont really want to discuss this here.  Lets just say Im working on it.

Fear primarily corresponds to unrealistic expections.  The expectations I have of my life are too much for me to achieve, without purpose.  And I feel the expectations of others heavily.  My parents have high expectations of me, and the pressure of them make it diffcult to achieve.  I dont deal with pressure very well at all.  But yet I still feel the need for their approval.  And not just theirs.  I need to stop caring about what other people think about me and my life.

Simple sounds nice.

Stress.  I bring that upon myself.  From all of the above, and the fact that I am lazzzzzzy……

I want my driving force to be God.  Just need to figure out what he wants me to do.  And I know it will be something I have a passion for.  Which is really really exciting.  Having a passion for something is wonderful.

To be honest, I dont think many people know what my driving force is, or they are confused as i send mixed signals.  And I think that’s just a reflection of the confusion in my life at the moment.

Wearing my WWJD band

Well, today is the first day of a 40 day journey for me.  I’m reading the Purpose Driven Life with Rei’s church, so i thought I would do some pondering on my blog.

The Purpose Driven Life is a “book (that) will help you understand why you are alive and God’s amazing plan for you – both here and now, and for eternity”.  Every day you have passage to read, a topic to think about, a memory verse and a question.

Today – “Everything got started in him (God), and finds it purpose in him” Colossians 1:16b

It’s not about me. – Yes, I know this.  But thinking about it further, sure I know on an intellectual level that its about God, but I think I forget this.  I focus on things for me.  Like wanting to go to Japan on that exchange.  I really prayed hard for that, (well, hard for me) and I didnt get it.  I can accept that it isnt part of God’s plan for me, but i still want to go.  I suppose what I lack is putting the knowledge into practice.  Ask not God can do for you, but what you can do for God.  I dont think I do this often enough.  I think I need to listen to God more. oh yay! that means quiet time!

So, no more me me me me me me me.

This is going to take sometime.

“Inspite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?” – hmmmmm, good question.  I suppose that noticing God more often would be a good start.  I like to sit back and enjoy where i am, but it would help to be thankful to God for what gives me enjoyment. (I like the gardens in the city – they are beautiful!)  Think of God first?  That’s going to take practice.  I’ll start wearing my WWJD wristband thing again, that’s always a good reminder.

I dont think I should have to vote.  I dont really have an opnion on politics.  And the ballot paper gave me a paper cut.

grrr….

2 hours until my first ebay auction ends.  check it out – http://cgi.ebay.com.au/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=4040912006&ssPageName=STRK:MESE:IT

I was going to rant about something, but I forgot what it was.  Think I’ll change my theme back to my old one.  this one is kinda boring.  I like pink

yes its that time of year again….

Jacaranda season!  and you know what that means????  Exams are coming!  so start studying.

Why can we have something cool to celebrate the flowering trees…  like in japan – go and sit under the trees and have a picnic (with copious amounts of alcohol to wash it down….)  I am so living in the wrong country…..