yamaonna

firstly, sorry for the post early this morning.  I was in quite a state, and had to get it out of my system.

Todays blog is entitled “Kimochi”

now, Im not to sure it fits quite right, but it basically means feelings caused by an external source, i think…

NEway, my emotions whist i am in japan are quite curious.  Of course I have good times and bad, but it seems to me that when i have lows, they are very very low….  In the last few months I have have probably cried more in than i did last year.

I cant quite figure out what the causes of this are…  Sure, right now I am stressed, which isnt the most healthy state to be in, but its not all that bad, and last time i lived in japan i was hardly in what i would call a stressful situation.

my top theories are – lack of close friends, and less human interaction than i am used to.  – not doing enough exercise (but this is true most of the thme). – no hugs. 

yeah, thats all i can think of at the moment.

I really dont understand it, but I want to fix it.  Esp if i do end up living here for longer.  I dont want to go though this all the time.  I know that my lifestyle here is very different from that in australia, and i think that also might be a primary cause.  But i can also say that (in general) i also like my lifestyle here, quite possibily more than in australia.

ugh, this is all confused.  i think i will leave it for now.  things are comming out as i wanted them to.  I think I will go buy some icecream.