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Day 3 – What drives your life?

Good question.  And to be honest at the moment – nothing of great importance

From what I can gather from reading to book – resentment, fear, need for approval and stress.  Damn stress…..

Resentment isnt that big of an issue, except when it comes to my relationship with males of the species, and then that leads to fear….  But I dont really want to discuss this here.  Lets just say Im working on it.

Fear primarily corresponds to unrealistic expections.  The expectations I have of my life are too much for me to achieve, without purpose.  And I feel the expectations of others heavily.  My parents have high expectations of me, and the pressure of them make it diffcult to achieve.  I dont deal with pressure very well at all.  But yet I still feel the need for their approval.  And not just theirs.  I need to stop caring about what other people think about me and my life.

Simple sounds nice.

Stress.  I bring that upon myself.  From all of the above, and the fact that I am lazzzzzzy……

I want my driving force to be God.  Just need to figure out what he wants me to do.  And I know it will be something I have a passion for.  Which is really really exciting.  Having a passion for something is wonderful.

To be honest, I dont think many people know what my driving force is, or they are confused as i send mixed signals.  And I think that’s just a reflection of the confusion in my life at the moment.

Wearing my WWJD band